When I was an angsty teenager, I felt very isolated and alone from the world. It was as if no one cared, and I was floating along by myself. That time of my life was incredibly dark for me. I felt as if I did not matter and that no one loved me. These feelings, of course, were exacerbated by the gender dysphoria of which I was barely aware. Honestly, it is a miracle that I made it out of that time of my life unscathed.
One of the few things which really gave me pleasure during those dark times was a radio program that came on my local Christian radio station. The program, a project of Focus on the Family (I know, bear with) was hosted by two quirky middle-aged people who somehow related to their much younger audiences. Looking back, I think the reason that show worked was because they both cared about us. They wanted to help us work through the turmoil in our lives. The evangelical indoctrination aside, I knew that every Saturday for two hours I would get to spend time with my two good friends and listen to other people my age talk about the things which frightened and delighted them. It was wonderful to be connected to others in this way.
When the program was cancelled, I was devastated. But I took the lessons I learned from that experience, and they have contributed to who I am as a person today. I am especially concerned with helping youth connect with older mentors who help to give them a sense of direction and worth in our community. Moreover, it has long been my goal to have a consistent forum through which I can accomplish this work.
To this end, I am fulfilling a life-time dream and will be co-hosting a new radio program on KPPP-LP 88.1FM in Fargo-Moorhead geared toward queer audiences. My co-host and I are working to develop this weekly program so that it is a forum for queer folk to share their experiences, their fears, their triumphs, and their lives. I am looking forward to this journey together as we build our relationship over the airwaves starting this Wednesday (8/17)..
If you are in the Fargo-Moorhead metro area, tune into 88.1FM on your radio every Wednesday night at 5pm. You can also listen online through KPPPFM.com.